::a Natalie and Buelo pic will go here once scanned::
Figuring who to ask was troublesome to say the least. I really considered walking alone, I mean, I'll be 30 years old by then, I am an independent woman! Roar!! lol.
I am glad my Buelo is up to it, but had he not been, my Dad has three wonderful brothers and two brothers in law that I am certain would have been delighted to give me away had I asked. I just wouldn't know how to begin to decide between them.
And I thought about my little brother. He would have been a good option too, but he is in the wedding as one of the groomsmen, which I think is the best place for a brother to be. I just thought it would feel weird to be given away by my little bro, the one I look out for and give unsolicited advice to.
Then I thought about my Mom. We are best friends. She was Mom and Dad since I was 11. She would be the most appropriate to give me away. But I wanted my actual Dad to be somehow represented, so Buelo seemed like a better choice. Plus being Mother of the Bride is an important thing in and of itself. I want her to have her time to go down the aisle before me and get ooh-ed and ahh-ed and 'doesn't she look lovely-ed' at. If she walked with me she'd totally steal my thunder! I am joking, but you get the picture.
For those of you who don't know the story, the reason my Dad isn't around to walk me down the aisle himself is because he passed away back in 1993 from cancer. It was hard and horrible, but time heals your pain as well as it can. I miss him so very much, but this whole getting married thing really makes the void so much bigger seeming. I wonder if he would have liked Aaron. I wonder what advice he'd give us about marriage. I wonder what he'd look like as a 59 year old. I wonder what song we would have danced to. I know that he is always with me, figuratively speaking. It is just a bummer with no one to blame. I think some things you just never get over. Though if life hadn't unfolded the way it did, who knows what my life would be today. I can say for sure that I am pretty glad for where I am today, so that is something.
Miss you, Dad.
2 comments:
I can't imagine how hard it is to not have your Dad around during this time, but be thankful for your grandfather, and I think it's great your Dad will still be represented on your wedding day. Maybe you could do something else in his honor? I was really close to my grandfather, so the favors at my wedding were in his honor.
OMG I LOVE the little Natalie. I
I also love that G-pa is walking you down the isle. :) :) :)
XOXO
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